i am reet poorly today. i feel absolutely rotten and have very little energy for being mummy or wife or subbie. This is really the first time since we've started TTWD that it's been me that has backed off and it seems to be giving D a chance to 'shine' or maybe just find His feet without me tugging at the reigns. He's being wonderfully nurturing and making sure i look after myself properly- He's even offered to finish work early.Before, any of these thing would have led to Him feeling resentful but not expressing it. He's being so wonderful infact that it's making me feel guilty that i can't serve or service Him properly to show my appreciation.
Now i totally get the argument that i need to look after His property so i shouldn't feel guilty about resting and making sure i get better, it's more the self- pity that i have an issue with. i feel so sorry for myself that it's kinda .. preoccupying... i can see i'm losing my focus but can't muster the energy to do much about it.
Gah i hate being ill!
Hopeless Dom
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I am pretty hopeless at being a dom in some senses, I think I haave got to
grips with the basics of the kinky sex which I was interested in and
physicall...
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Well, I hope you feel much better real soon...
ReplyDeleteAnd its good that you are realizing that you have a responsibility in this relationship. You DO need to focus on his needs, on being 'there' for him, on taking care of 'his property'.
Stress causes all sorts of lowering of our defenses. When you rebel or fight or internally argue with his will, you are accumulating pressure and distress that seeks a path to spill out.
Recognize, that being good and obedient and patient and serving and positive is all a part of a submissive's role -- in essence, it is a major 'unwritten' rule or duty.
To submit is to seek to please and obey.
And therein you shall find your peace and happiness, your reward and your fulfillment.
When your Master is proud of you and satisfied with your service, you achieve bliss.
Be well, be strong, focus on the positives, and feel good that you are loved and desired.
We love you --- get well soon !
Awww what a lovely message! Thank you so much! i think i'm slowly starting to get the hang of that focus on patience in order to prioritise HIs needs.
ReplyDeletei'm so glad you found me :)
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