emerging from the world of the lurkers

i've been lurking for a little while on various blogs now which has helped me get to grips with what we are doing but i recently had a 'moment' which made me feel it was time to emerge.
As this whole change has been at my request i have really tried to be careful about not putting to much pressure on (i regularly fail lol) and often find myself using phrases like " if we're going to do this" and "if this is still what You want". Well, D and i were having a row at the weekend and i pulled out one of these comments to which he replied
"I think you need to accept that there's no 'if' anymore; we are in a D/s relationship and i can't see that changing."

oh.

That shut me up.

i will try and put up some more detail soon about how we got started into this and where we are going so far. My plan is to repost some things from the private blog that i feel brave enough to share and put in vignettes from our journey along with my, often quite random, thoughts.
i'm rapidly becoming addicted to this writing thing but have to keep balance with 2 young children and a college course as well as D's needs of course.

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