spanking

last night D was back after a night away and this is often a difficult time for us as we've both been so immersed in our 'other' roles and particularly i've had to be Domme mummy- hee hee.

Last night we'd planned to cook together which was really enjoyable and it felt like we were able to relax much quicker than we normally do but when we were finished and went to sit down it still felt like something wasn't quite right. D automatically went to turn the TV on and i think i sighed rather dramatically which was pretty out of line of me- even if my point may have been valid it was fairly disrespectful and it seemed to increase D's feeling that there was a weight of expectation on Him. He commented that His body language was still very distances from me as i knelt in front of Him and i was worried that the kneeling sometimes feels to Him like i'm waiting for something which is not what i intend at all.

i took the initiative at this point and suggested that He tried spanking me as a way of helping us feel closer and Him in control without expectations while we continued to chat. He was quite open to the idea and we managed to find a comfortable position where He sits in the middle of the sofa so that i can be over His lap without putting pressure on my dodgy shoulder. We continued to chat a little  while experimenting with different types of slap and He asked how different things felt. The whole thing was really wonderful and i found that recognising that it was wrong to have an idea of how it 'should' be really helped me to just enjoy what we were sharing and D found that He was getting very aroused by the whole thing which i think surprised Him a fair bit.

We stayed like this until it was my bedtime and then He sent me off to bed with a fairly chaste kiss- SO lovely to be cared for like this and i feel so much love for Him right now.

This morning He woke me up with His hands all over for me (morning sex is no go for us atm on account of the two young children who are very early risers!) and then used a finger to push my chin up and hold it there. i was instantly aroused- gah! i think today is going to be a very long day!

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