Thursday 18 March 2010

all jumbled up

i've had to change contraception method recently and am currently in that delightful 'haywire hormones' phase as my body adjusts. It's making me feel things much more extremely i think and i had a really bad day with it yesterday. The issue that i've probably blown out of proportion is that even though we're definitely getting things back on track now it still feels like the D/s basically consists of a scheduled spanking on a friday, a scheduled scene on a sunday and the rest of the time we're completely vanilla in our interactions but i try (and often fail) to adhere to rules that D is actually not all that bothered about and wait on Him. i'm putting it a little baldly but this is  how it's felt - like all the little touches of dominance or submission we'd been offering each other had disappeared along with any added spontaneity to the more kinky sex and spanking. Where were all the 'just because I can' moments?
Somehow though, this ended up being a positive. i was able to explain how i was feeling to D in a calm and reasonably self-aware manner that made Him comment that He actually felt far more inclined to help me out and hear my concerns than He remembered feeling before. 
We were able to have a really nice evening with a small amount of kink thrown in for good measure hee hee! 

2 comments:

  1. Good to see that you're communicating and may you both stay on the same page.

    FD

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  2. thanks FD! Yes we're definitely communcating better- it's good to look back sometimes and realise how far we've come already!

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